I had a very long, detailed and intense dream in which I was a member of the How I Met Your Mother Cast. Not a dream that I am an actress, rather that this was my real life. I was all tangled up with Marshall, played by the adorably goofy, Jason Segel. I just love him so much. For those of you who watch the show, I can also tell you that Lily was fooling around with Ted and that Barney and Robin were back together. For those of you who don't I can tell you it doesn't really matter.
Do you ever have the kinds of sex dreams that have you missing something you haven't had in a long while? I miss the chemical rush of the first, hot, intense hook ups with a new crush. The feelings of nearly static electricity flowing between two hands hovering near each other, sparking when they touch. The wave of headiness that overtakes you when you finally have that deep kiss that causes the whole world to disappear. When was the last time you made out with such passion that you didn't hear the kids, hear the tv, hear your phone notifications?
It was great to have a dream that was a perfect meld of memory and fantasy. It was also a Freudian study in the melding of the men. You'd have to know the men in my life to truly get it, but I can say that if you melded my Wrestler and my Hubs, you'd have Jason.
I miss the nights where you fall asleep entangled and wake up in the middle of the night just to make love. When in the morning you seriously consider quitting your job rather than getting out of that bed. Eating left over Chinese, naked in the sheets. Having hours of endless conversations where you are getting to know each others beliefs and what makes them who they are.
When was the last time you experienced that sort of fall? What do you miss as part of the trade for finding your "forever" person?