It’s not all misery and failed relationships around here. I do have some positive things to share:
The Interloper has been approved for Medicare, set to start up in September or so, I believe. He’s also been giving us a little more space upstairs and is not ALWAYS underfoot. Recently he has been having some health issues though, and he’s getting mopey again. I thought he’d really taken a turn for the more healthy and more positive but once he had his own money and was responsible for his own self things have started to do back down hill.
I have a job interview in a couple of weeks. It’s a place I really wanted to hear back from so I’m pretty nervous. I don’t want to say too much, I don’t want to jinx things, but from what research I’ve done on the place, I’d be lucky to work there. I think I have the personality they are looking for, but I don’t know that I have the skill set. We shall see.
I am losing weight. I’ve done a great job at cutting my sugar intake by more than half. I’ve increased my water intake and my exercise. I refuse to call it dieting and I refuse to step on a scale, but my fat ass pants don’t stay up anymore and I fit back into some smaller sizes that I had to put away. I’ve had help, I’ve been taking a small (like half) dosage of an appetite suppressant but I try to take it only every two days or every other day max. It doesn’t make me feel all geeked up or anything and I do eat, but it’s just smaller portions and I don’t get those snacky munchies cravings that derail any good eating choices I’d made earlier in the day. I will only be taking them for a couple more weeks, then I think my lifestyle changes will have been made and firmly in place for me to carry on without the help.
Things with Hubs are cordial. They aren’t affectionate and they aren’t warm but we are existing peacefully under one roof, for now. I wanted to spend a little time around him, while not furious at him, and while not being forced to play nice for all the family sake, to see where my feelings landed when they were totally unpushed in any direction. Usually I find my heart (and body) drifting back in his direction, our magnetic pull overriding my plans for separation. That is not even close to being the case this time. I feel like the connection is broken. Now I have to process how that makes me feel. I won’t be making any decisions like this one lightly or hastily.