Why can't I just pull the trigger? Calm down people, I'm speaking metaphorically. Don't let the rage from that last post cause you concern for the life of the Hubs.
What I am asking, is why can't I go through with an all out separation? Being under the same roof only perpetuates the to and fro cycle. We're like the tides at this point. It's beyond ridiculous. There is just no way for me to be all in at this point. Too many things are too fractured and have been incompletely repaired too many times. It's beyond "for better and for worse".
Something keeps me attached, something keeps me from calling the T.O.D. and I don't know what that is. I think that is what I need to figure out. I need to know what is going on inside of me that accepting of this reality. Why am I so broken?